So I had my first meltdown concerning lsat’s/law schools/balancing life/etc yesterday. I couldn’t help it. I knew it was bound to happen at some point or another. This summer has been so much work. I feel myself struggling with balancing working, studying, time with friends, family, and boyfriend. I guess this is just a preview of what’s to come my first year of law school … well if I make it til then. Hah. I’m so melodramatic.
Aside from the ocassional breakdowns regarding law school and the lsat’s, I could not be happier. On friday I am going to see John Mayer in Rockefeller Plaza with one of my best friends and then I am going to the much anticipated Hot Air Balloon festival with B <3 and then in exactly 2 weeks I get an amazing visit from one of my close friends for four days!! I cannot wait to show her all of NYC and jersey city and hoboken, favorite places to eat, chill, etc.
I wish …..
I could capture mental images and then have them appear on my computer or have them developed. The pictures would of course be polaroids, considering my obsession with instant film cameras as I’m sure you have read 85765754 times. But I wish I could capture everyday moments when you want to just have a camera handy but as always, you forget to bring it, you forget to take a picture, and other times, you just want to BE in the moment without necessarily taking a picture of it. I would capture …
- His smile in the morning when he wakes up. Makes me so ridiculously happy.
- A reflection in a rain puddle after a big storm.
- The hustle and bustle of the city (usually I’m in the hustle and bustle rather than out of it)
- Sleepy eyes
- Family time, laughter, joy, etc
(Just to name a few)
I guess I could capture these moments. But like he always tells me, I have to LIVE in the moment in order to truly appreciate it. It would be nice to have something tangible to look back on rather than rely on memory alone though.
Until next time ….
I want a picture like this =] OBSESSED.